Wednesday, April 26, 2017

I Can Carry This



one day you finally knew
what you had to do..and began
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles
"mend my life!"
each voice cried
but you didn't stop
you knew what you had to do
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations
though their melancholy
was terrible
it was already late
enough..and a wild night
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones
but little by little
as you left their voices behind
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world
determined to do
the only thing you could do...
determined to save
the only life you could save

its up to me
i
can
carry
this

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Seeking





clouds shift
illumination
the heart knows

some days
thoughts dance wildly
meditation
750 words
morning pages
seeking clarity
seeking answers
seeking...



Monday, April 24, 2017

Sleepless


let the snake wait under his weed
and the writing be of words
slow and quick
sharp to strike
quiet to wait
sleepless

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Becoming Legend


some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness
and they live by what they hear
such people become crazy
...or they become legend




Saturday, April 22, 2017

Bent




body bent
 a question mark

be ground
be crumbled
so wild flowers will come up
where you are


Friday, April 21, 2017

Seeding the Sky





"all i want to be
is a thousand blackbirds
bursting from a tree
seeding the sky"

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Thursday, April 13, 2017

The Language of Pain


fearlessness
 is not avoiding the ups and downs of life
it's sitting with them
listening
feeling
bowing to them

 the language of pain
i'm becoming fluent
pain
changes
people




Wednesday, April 12, 2017

OUCH!


the good news:
someone brought me wood so i can
practice my chainsaw carving

the bad news:



i didn't jump quick enough when he pushed the 
largest piece off his truck

seriously glad i was wearing my steel toe boots
hate to have seen what would have happened
without them

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Ghost Dreams


"faded hopes...just because they weren't played out in
sound...in muscle...and bone...doesn't mean they didn't
have a life of their own. ghost dreams...transparencies...
like light falling through a window...not everything is
meant to be held."

Monday, April 10, 2017

Silence


"people go silent:
there isn't any canyon deep enough to hide
only a sky and a faith and a wilderness"

my days
alone
outdoors
silence

sometimes
against all odds
against all logic
we
still
hope

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Peace


bare feet
fresh cut grass
bee spirit
dragonfly spirit
butterfly spirit
birdsong
mid day meditation
gratitude
 at this moment
peace
in
my
heart

Friday, April 7, 2017

Angel's Breath


fierce winds today
crystal blue sky
cloud spirits
kaleidoscopic dancing
angels breath
visions
appear
metamorphose
whisper
i
see
you

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Lost




"becoming lost is a natural
part of becoming found"

seeking
 lifeline
back
to
me





Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Where Are You Spark?


"so much depends upon the lighting of this fire...
so neatly laid. a platform of kindling...a floor of 
fine twigs snapped from the underside of a fir...
a nest of shredded bark over which broken pine
branches are balanced to draw the flame upward.
plenty of fuel...plenty of oxygen. all the elements
are in place. but without the spark it is only a pile
of dead sticks. so much depends on the spark."

where are you
spark?

Monday, April 3, 2017

Truth #6


Saturday, April 1, 2017

Those Who Know Have Wings


the earthbound ostrich spent so long keeping
its feet on the ground and its head in the sand
that it lost the power of flight forever...whereas
the bumble bee continues to fly despite the fact
that science has proven it aerodynamically 
impossible. among all things that fly...the mind
is the swiftest. those who know have wings.
disapproval of belief systems is beyond my
understanding...how can anyone say that
only they know the nature of God?

my belief is that my God is the same
as your God...but then again...
that's my belief.
you are entitled
to yours...

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

I Am Afraid


why are we so afraid to
step outside of our 
comfort zone?

i
am
afraid

i
am
afraid

i
am
afraid

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Done


We Are One


done

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Food For My Soul


working out side
covered in sweat and sawdust
food for my soul

saved the part of my tree sculpture
that intimidates me the most for last
not my usual modus operandi
normally when intimidated i
attack that sh*t and get it over with
but...i haven't exactly been my
normal self lately....


my first attempt at roughing out a
head with a chainsaw
finished up with an angle grinder
all in all i'm pleased
got it looking the way i pictured
stained
tomorrow it will get a coat
of linseed oil and will be
attached to the tree
then given a day for the glue to set
think it will be done
but
we'll see...

Friday, March 24, 2017

On Progress and Memories


do trees have memory?
my belief is anything living does
i killed this tree for a selfish reason
to atone for this i promised to honor
her spirit as an art form
while debarking i talked to her
ran my hands over each section
whispered apologies
then for several days i sat
with her...just sat
observing
listening
finally she spoke
"we are one"
 hurting her
i had hurt 
myself

i am no great sculptor
but promised to honor her spirit
...my spirit
her memories...mine
forged
she will likely never forget
her senseless demise
i will never forget the
anguish in my life
when i took hers
memories...
we
are
one



Thursday, March 23, 2017

Truth #5


"there are some things about myself i can't explain to anyone.
there are some things i don't understand at all. i can't tell what
i think about things or what i'm after. i don't know what my
strengths are or what i'm supposed to do about them. but if
i start thinking about these things in too much detail the
whole thing gets scary. and if i get scared i can only think
about myself. i become really self-centered...and without
meaning to...i hurt people. so i'm not such a wonderful
human being."

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Thankful For Guardian Angels


spent today working on red tail hawk 
for my tree sculpture


with my newest toy

sweat
sawdust
right brain
the only relief
frightening bipolar 
episode


power tools
three sleepless nights
not the best option
but
necessary

thankful
for
guardian
angels



Monday, March 20, 2017

Messages of Love


i love the heart shaped orb
captured in this shot


my keeper was placed facing east
so i would get this shadow each evening
east... the element of fire
fire...
my
spirit



Sunday, March 19, 2017

It's About Your Heart....



the keeper of my heart
this piece stands 8 ft tall
there was so much more i wanted to do
carve a face
intricate designs
but it kept saying
no
that love isn't about beauty
or having fine things
it's about your heart
and how looking at the one you love
causes you to forget human language

Saturday, March 18, 2017

Sweat And Sawdust


spending my days in the comfort
of angels

a meteorite travels alone
so does a falling star
so
do
i

Thursday, March 16, 2017

The Keeper of My Heart


"most people have only made
a dent in my memory
a little nick
but you..
you moved in
made yourself at home
and spread your arms to
make room for your
wingspan"

at the end of the day
to be spent
and covered in sawdust
soothes my soul

this...

will be 
the keeper of
my
heart


Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Un-put-back-togetherable


shards
 broken
un-put-back-togetherable

which is...
 ok
i
don't
want
to
be
that
person
again

Monday, March 6, 2017

Heartsore


"when you sit in silence long enough
you learn that silence has a motion.
it glides over you without shape or form
exactly like water. its color is silver.
and silence has a sound you hear only
after hours of wading inside it. the sound
is soft...like flute notes rising up...
like the words of glass speaking."

"i have this strange sense that my silence is
preparing me for something i can't name..."

some days
 so heartsore
silence 
my only 
companion

Saturday, March 4, 2017

The Path of Knowing

                                                                                            giselle hicks ceramics

seven gifts:

...the courage to sit and wait

...the curiosity to open closed doors and explore
what is behind them

...the ability to listen to yourself

...an appreciation for the experience of all life

...a respect for the power of your imagination

...the compassion to try to embrace all things with
unconditional acceptance

...an awe for the path of knowing

these are from one of my latest reads:



this:

began debarking today
chisel
hammer
muscle
we talk
promised i would
 listen
 to her wishes
then
 do my best
with an awe for the
path of
knowing