Sunday, August 21, 2016

Color Me Happy!

well.....
i've finally decided how i will use my textile meditations!
since my birthday is coming up this week i've splurged on
a vintage denim jacket to trick out:


it's a 1950's montgomery ward powrhouse 
sanforized chore jacket. 


there are lots of opportunities for some boro mending:




i really like the blanket lining in this jacket:


happy birthday to me.....
color me happy!

Saturday, August 20, 2016

I Am the Captain of My Soul




 
"it matters not how strait the gate
how charged with punishments the scroll
i am the master of my fate
i am the captain of my soul"


a quote from my favorite poem:
invictus
                                                      ~ william ernest henley
 
 
 
 today's textile meditation....
 

Friday, August 19, 2016

Aye Eye Sir!


i finished another piece for my... journal cover?

...altered shirt/jacket?

...fabric collage?

i seriously don't know where i'm going
with these pieces but i'm loving this 
whole slowstitching thingy!

liz kettle has a video showing how 
she uses stitching small fabric
pieces as a daily meditation. i 
meditate each morning using the
insight timer app but find creating 
these small works of art just as
calming.

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

More Slow Stitching





slowstitching....
meditative...
calming...

i'm not sure where i'm going with this piece...
it will probably be used on a journal cover...but...
maybe an altered shirt..
we'll see.
 
i treated myself to these kotobuki traditional 
thread scissors and ring thimble. the thimble
really helps when sewing through painted cloth.
 
 
 
* the circle design is from a jude hill class 
 
**the face is from a printable for members of
teesha moore's artstronauts club that i 
transferred to fabric

Monday, August 15, 2016

A Little Wabi Sabi Anyone?

sooooo.....

sew.....

my nemesis and i got along
surprisingly well.





i'm taking Susie LaFond's Curious Bundles class
(she is such a creative soul) and decided to make
a gift as my first project.

my sister in law has a birthday soon and since
she doesn't journal i thought i'd  make her a 
note pad cover. she works for an auctioneer and
spends a good deal of her time cataloging items
for the sales. 

this is my first attempt using some of the methods in
Susie's class. the above picture is the front 
cover. here's the back:




and the inside:




i used felt for the inside of this cover just to give it
a little structure. i thought about making some type
of closure but decided it would be better for her to
be able to just flip it open when needed.

as far as the sewing....i'll have to say i prefer hand
sewing to machine sewing. i really didn't have a
hard time with the machine...i was even able to
refill the bobbin twice while making this with
no incidence other than the thread looking like
a birds nest on the bobbin...but it worked fine.
the biggest problem was sewing straight lines...
which is this users fault and not the machine...
although Susie stresses to go with the flow and
don't worry about things like that.

i'm just thankful for the concept of wabi sabi.

* i decided to personalize this a little by adding
a picture of my brother that was transferred to
cloth and put in an old film negative holder. even
after 27 years of marriage they are still that couple
that are joined at the hip and she will like seeing
his smiling face.

 

Friday, August 12, 2016

Me vs My Nemesis

and it begins....

again...



Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Old Friends

these are my favorite jeans:




 
i can't even remember how long i've had them.
they are so worn that you can literally see daylight
through the material when they are held up to the
light....sigh.
 
get a stain...slap on some paint
 
another hole...boro
 
thank goodness for boro:
 
 


 
 
my stubborn self is just not going to let this
old friend go any time soon.

here is how i foresee my friend's future:


me and you...bud

me and you..

Saturday, July 30, 2016

WTH????

soooooooo....Threat Assessment started following
me on Twitter...
 
Whhh...
 
WHAT????




Thursday, July 28, 2016

Is There Anybody Out There?




 
Another entry for my journal: MY DYSFUNCTIONS..
a journal for chronicling my immeasurably fascinating
 dysfunctions..neuroses..emotions..inner child..moments
 of shame and doubt..projection..self-loathing..misanthropy..
and completely normal insanity..because the only difference between
 me and the rest of the population is that I acknowledge
 how crazy I am and they're all in mind-numbing denial.
 
we all have them....

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

Half Goddess Half Hell




today's journal spread...

"half goddess...half hell"

sounds about right...
 
some days
 
i
 
don't
 
recognize
 
myself...

 
 


Saturday, July 23, 2016

CRAZY iS tHe nEw sAnE

sooooo.....
do i win the award for worst blogger?

sorry....
i've been fighting demons.


this is today's journal spread.
when i watch the news..
or read everyone's facebook posts..
i can't help but think 

CRAZY
IS
THE 
NEW
SANE
 
 

Monday, June 6, 2016

Life Lessons




i started my morning with a little journaling.
it's been hot and rainy this past week... outside
is like a sauna...and i'm waiting for the grass to
dry enough to mow my yard.

i've put my car camping adventure on hold for a
while. i had someone living in a house that i own
next door who packed an overnight bag and walked
out leaving the place in a terrible mess. so during
this heat...and in between the rains...i've spent my
time carrying off trash and junk. one week down
and i'm only on the kitchen! i'm really not liking
how it looks like i'll be spending my summer....on
top of the money spent to have a trailer hitch installed
and purchase a small utility trailer so i can clean 
this house. 

oh well...
life lessons.....

Monday, May 23, 2016

Queen of Stealth




first night camping report:

crawled into car around 11:00pm

between the full moon and the outside light it
was awfully bright without curtains

even with a few clouds i enjoyed a stellar
view of the stars before drifting off to sleep

dreamed about stealth camping in a residential
neighborhood with a plethora of friends and
acquaintances showing up throughout the dream
i live in the country and don't have close
neighbors   (.....very strange dream)

woke to the sound of gentle tapping and 
was immediately reminded of finding a 
mouse in the car last summer

realized the sound was rain...  grabbed keys....
leaned over front seat to start car and roll windows
up....

SET OFF CAR ALARM
(cue the police song king of pain and insert
queen of stealth...sigh)

after much fumbling managed to get
alarm turned off

potty break

pulled blanket over head and
slept until morning

first night:   done!

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Honda Fit Conversion Part 2

things are slowly moving along with my "camper" car.
i wasn't able to find a fleece blanket at any of the thrift
stores around here so i finally just bought an inexpensive
full/queen fleece blanket at wal-mart for $10. i was able
to cut two long strips and two squares out of one blanket. 
here is one of the strips that will cover the side windows:





i glued velcro strips along the top with E6000 glue.
from what i've read it should hold up to the heat. (the
white showing is some parchment paper i put under
the glued strips so the window cover doesn't become
a permanent part of my kitchen floor) i won't be able
to tell if i need to put velcro along the bottom until i
see how they are going to hang. i really didn't want to
glue the mounting strips to my car headliner so i'm
going to try securing them with horizontal straight
pins to see if that will work...seemed to work fine
with a sample but we'll have to see with the weight
of the curtain. i've made velcro curtains for the side
windows and the back hatch window but have
opted to stretch a bungee cord across the front from
overhead handle to handle and clip the curtain onto
the cord with binder clips so i can slide the curtain.
i'm also planning to use binder clips in each of the
corners where the curtains meet. i'll post pics when
everything is in place.

meanwhile.... i'm going to spend my first night in
the car in my yard tonight....sans curtains. here is
a pic from the back of my couch pillow bed:


i've got my handy dandy window screens on the back
windows so i can leave them open if it's too hot. i'm
thinking of cutting a little drop down panel in the 
curtains over the back windows for when i need
them open but i did buy the battery powered fan for
comfort. you'll notice i left the passenger side back
seat up...here's why:





the seat part folds up leaving plenty of room for me to
stand stooped over in the car for when i need to potty. 
i purchased a freshette...
 
 
 
......which i totally
expected to cause tears of laughter and tears of
wee to run down my legs but was surprised to see
there was no learning curve....works like a charm.
(WHERE was this thing all those years i was on the
road in law enforcement????) i think after getting used
to sleeping in the car i won't need standing space
to wee in a jug and can leave both back seats
down for more storage space.



so....first night
wish me luck!

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Honda Fit Camper Conversion part 1





i've been spending a LOT of time researching this
car camping thingy. i've even started making some
basic purchases




i already have a two burner propane camp stove but
bought this one burner butane stove to save space. since
i don't have solar i got this fatmax that plugs into my
car so i can charge my phone and laptop while i'm
driving. 
 
 


i got three of these Luci lights. they are roughly about
the size of a softball and you just blow them up with
your breath. they are solar led lights and are hung in
the sun through the day to charge...with three
settings....low....bright....and blinking (whaaaaaaa...
i'm thinking disco!) they actually put out a lot of
light....enough to read by.
 
 


i spent the afternoon (YES...it took me all afternoon!)
making two screens for my car windows. those of you
who are long time readers of my blog know that the
sewing machine is not my friend. this material is tulle
which i found extremely hard to work with. it's slippery
and my old eyes had a hard time seeing if the edges
matched up. even though i pinned the tulle between
a strip of cloth to sew the edge it still slipped and i had
to resew lots (partly because the bobbin thread ran out...
took me three tries sewing one side before i figured
out why it wasn't working!) 




here's the screen on my car window. it allows you to
crack (or roll down) the window for a breeze without
letting in the bugs. the screen just slips over the top of
the open door and when you close the door you put a
magnetic strip across the bottom (the white thing) to
block entry. the peel off backing on this magnetic strip
keeps coming off so i'm going to try sticking some metal
heat duct tape on it to see if that will stay.
 
 


 
again....since i don't have solar...i'm planning on buying
this battery operated fan and getting some rechargeable
batteries. i know i won't be able to sleep in the car if it's
too hot so i'm hoping the screens and fan will do the 
trick. i'm also planning to get a uv tarp to set up over
the top of the car for shade and to be able to sit/cook
under. 




originally i had planned to purchase this REI 3.5 self inflating 
camp bed but it's pretty pricey and with all the other things
i need to get i've opted to use my couch pillows...they are an
exact fit for the space where i will be sleeping and really
comfortable. i plan to get a fitted twin cotton mattress cover
to put on the cushions under the sheets so hopefully they
won't get dirty. 



this is a pan that mechanics use to catch oil drips that
i bought for under my supplies when i use encaustic
wax. it's very light...about the weight of a cookie pan.
it's the same width and length as two of my couch
pillows and i plan to use it on top of the pillows/bed as
a work station with the back hatch up to prep food or
whatever.

soooo....that's where i am. my next project will be
curtains for the back of my car. i'm going junking
for a fleece blanket that i can cut up to make
 curtains....and trust me....they will NOT be
 anything that needs sewing!





Friday, May 6, 2016

Yep....I'm Cra Cra

this time every year i get all hepped up and want to 
plant flowers everywhere. i do dearly love me some
flowers! this area across my front porch always gets
too much sun during our hot southern summers for 
anything to do really well so this year i decided on
succulents and lemon balm.







another reason for the succulents...i'm hoping to take a
few road trips this summer. i really...really...really would
like to have a class b rv....like a pleasure-way:




truth is...i can't afford one...and if i had one
i couldn't afford to keep insurance on it plus my 
car. i have a honda fit:
 
the back seats lay down and make a nice cargo area
for hauling things around....which i'm wont to do...so
i thought...hmmmm...maybe i can use my car to camp
with. well...i immediately got lost in you tube land 
because....wow....there are bunches of folks doing this!
it appears to be some kind of new movement to do
"stealth camping" in modified conversion vans and 
cars.....who knew? it sure looks like something that
can be done on a shoestring budget.

here is an interesting video of a woman my age that 
travels across the country in her prius... which size wise
is pretty much like my car. i know the whole "bathroom"
thing will probably freak most of you out but as someone
who spent a lot of time hauling horses around and camping
in the boondocks...i've already done my share of this kind
of thing. i think i really need to give this a try...my honda
gets 40 miles to the gallon and i could do a lot of road
tripping with this set up!


Saturday, April 23, 2016

Stay Weird




more "just for fun" silliness.....
i'm not weird...
i'm
a
limited
edition!

Thursday, April 21, 2016

I Have Not Failed


don't you just love happy accidents? i like using my
scrap/blot papers in my journals. i thought the one on
the right looked like houses. 

journal spread of the day: i have not failed

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

The Seer

i played in my "just for fun" journal today.




as usual...it walked off on it's own path and
and left me with whisperings in my head.

"the sight"....my grandmother 
had it...my mother also. it scared the bejesus out
of me as a child but as an adult i recognize it
for the gift that it is. 
 
 


Thursday, February 11, 2016

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Infinite

in·fi·nite
ˈinfənət/
adjective
adjective: infinite
limitless or endless in space, extent, or size;
IMPOSSIBLE TO MEASURE or calculate.
                                              


                                                      





Saturday, January 16, 2016

Done

done
this PEELING away
of my UNTRUTHS
here is a flip through
of my journal/journey:


Friday, January 15, 2016

Ashes

ashes

plural noun
the powdery residue left after the burning of a substance.
the REMAINS of something destroyed; RUINS
the remains of the human body after cremation or burning




















Thursday, January 14, 2016

Disappointments

still PEELING layers
 
this:
 
disappointments
 
RELEASING.....
 


Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Unhurt

it is NOT about
the MATERIAL things
it was
NEVER
about the
material 
things....


Tuesday, January 12, 2016

UNSEE

the ATROCITIES i've seen
one human inflicting upon
another
HUMANS.....
man
woman
child
i worked in this
TOO many years
now i want to
UNSEE 



Monday, January 11, 2016

Shedding

i worked at a job for years
where i could show no FEAR
it became my persona
hardened
how i really felt....
weak
VULNERABLE
afraid
i CARRY that fear still
and a need to peel it
AWAY

shedding....