Wednesday, August 30, 2017

MALF


i try 
NOT
to hate things
but
fire ants
i get bitten at least
once a day
granted i'm most often
barefoot
still
they're just 
mean ass
little f*ckers


Tuesday, August 29, 2017

'Bout Ready




got my
owl
carved and added to
the post today



cut my
 other 
owl from the 
tree
and mounted it on a stump


all that
needs
doing now is
installing my
kindness matters
sculpture and i'll be
ready for 
yard art day
this labor day
september 4th




Sunday, August 27, 2017

That Smirk


meditation
a daily practice for me
try to do my mid day meditation
outside
accompanied today by
red dragon fly
cardinals
mockingbirds
finches
 lizard
 
always surprised
what
arises before 
letting it go
 
today found me thinking of my recent visit to the dvm to renew my drivers license...in my state this
is every ten years until you reach sixty five years of age. it will be my last time before dropping back
to every five years. the time before there were feet diagrams on the floor showing where to stand
for your picture...this time none. being tall...i chose to stand against the wall but was told to step closer. she took my photo and instructed me to lower my head to try again. next photo i was again instructed to lower my head at which point i started laughing...(was i supposed to look at my feet? i've always been a scavenger...searching for gifts as i walk. my mother was always after me to stand up straight... something i try to do as an adult when out in public ... although i still walk watching the ground when alone). the woman refused to taking my picture with me laughing...guess that wasn't the face they thought they would see at a traffic stop. so it ended up the deer in the headlights look with a smirk on my face....something to proudly show for the next ten years. at least it will probably put a smile on this old face when asked to identify myself.

 




Friday, August 25, 2017

Sculpture Garden

 cut these
bird
shapes from a cedar log
only wanted the 
suggestion
of birds
 
 
painted them black
mounted to a pole on
copper
pipe





this piece will be
carved
 an
owl
then added to the
top of the pole



moved
the keeper of my heart
down nearer the road
decided to
begin
filling this field with
angels
birds
spirits
made from
wood
concrete
found
materials

that's the
plan

we'll see




Monday, August 21, 2017

64

preparing for the
eclipse

64 
drumbeats
each
east
south
west
north

called in the
ancestors

64 walks around the
fire

prayers
added to prayer tree
while
feminine (moon)
and 
masculine (sun)
joined

64 drumbeats
64 walks around the fire
powerful eclipse
energy
on the
cusp of my own 64th
revolution
around the
sun

64

 my head bowed in
gratitude







Monday, August 14, 2017

Listening


original art by pamela zagarenski
be
patient
toward all that is 
unsolved
in your 
heart
and try to love the
questions
themselves
do not seek the
answers
which cannot be given you
because you would not be able to
live
them and the point is to live
everything
live the
questions
perhaps you will then gradually
without noticing it
live along some distant day into
the answers

stillness
and
listening
in 
time
i will hear the
answers

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Risk





if you can
risk
getting
lost
somewhere along the way
you might stumble upon
openings
that link you to
your
depths


Saturday, August 12, 2017

Flow


we cannot write in
water
we cannot
carve
in water
it is water's
nature
to
flow
that is how we should treat
life
emotion
negative
or 
positive
do not
deny
it...let it flow
 through
 and then
away


Friday, August 11, 2017

Remembering


spent the morning 
watching
light change
sun playing hide & seek
with clouds
birds singing their
truths
their
secrets
i lifted my 
voice
in song
my truths
my secrets
"once upon a time...when women were birds...there was the simple understanding that to sing at dawn and to sing at dusk was to heal the world through joy. the birds still remember what we have forgotten... that the world is meant to be celebrated."
remembering


Thursday, August 10, 2017

Listen





to listen to the 
drum
you must be
present
the
silence
between the beats
is where you hold hands
with
the invisible
and listen to the 
heartbeat
of the 
universe
learn to listen
listen to learn
listen
to the 
great silence
within
this is where all 
good
comes forth
 
at night i lay my
head
on my pillow 
and 
hear
my
blood
flow
through my veins
listen 
to my
heartbeat
a drum
my
drum



Wednesday, August 9, 2017

My Commitment



Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Mapped In My Blood


i lost my
path
over this last year
forgot there was a
map
in my
blood
 it's been there all along
i just didn't 
remember
that i
knew
it
thank you
winged ones
for guiding my
remembrance


Sunday, August 6, 2017

Survived





so much
anger
against myself
it is not 
my way
to
howl
over a
loss
one wing
crown missing
survived
 

Saturday, August 5, 2017

The Call

'Some of us may hear the Call sooner, others later. But whenever it happens, whenever it transpires that we find ourselves on an edge, out of our element, out of our skin, there is something in us still which hears, no matter how deeply buried. Like the first August swallow fidgeting on the telephone wires, we know there is something we should be doing. We know there is a Journey we should be undertaking. We cannot rest; we cannot sleep. Something in us knows that there is somewhere we should be going. And in the end, whether or not we think we can, we go because we must. We go, on a wing and a prayer, because to stay is to die.

We may need to travel a long distance before we find the new skin that fits us, and before we can learn to be comfortable in it – but first, we have to commit ourselves to the Journey. We have to awaken from our torpor, commit to life instead of the desiccated half-life of the Wasteland. We must shake off the false skins we’ve cloaked ourselves in; we must let the old die to make room for the new. We must be willing to detach from whom we have been, what we have become, before we can discover who we are really meant to be and what our work is in the world.'


Friday, August 4, 2017

Affirmation


wow
i have strayed too 
long
from my
path
lost
my connection
with my 
guardians
today i burned a 
fire 
in my fire pit
tossed in some written
prayers
asking for
help
after reading them
aloud to the
four directions
then a
red dragonfly
appeared and hovered
around me
following
me
i've never seen
a red dragonfly
before
affirmation 
"Red dragonflies can be rare to view, and very special when the opportunity comes along. Yet, interestingly, they often appear to people surrounding life episodes of loss and death; perhaps a bit of an oxymoron that these lovely winged creatures are present at such times. But the meaning of red dragonfly includes both good and bad omens: one of eternal love and one of death. This paradox embraces the polarities we find in life, and as such, it is not surprising the red dragonfly makes an appearance at moments of death and loss. Death is the polarity of Life, and upon departing this realm, we most likely return to our home of eternal love. Red dragonfly symbolism and death are intimately entwined as the end of life’s illusions through transformation.

While there are many folks who do not acknowledge red dragonfly spiritual meaning or significance beyond being merely an insect species, I beg to differ. Dragonflies have a way of mysteriously appearing. While their appearance to some holds no deep meaning, for others the visitation clearly brings a message. It corresponds, I believe, to one’s inner attraction for the mystery of the spiritual and unseen energies of the universe. All animal species including insects carry within them a spirit of earth and cosmic intelligence. They all have a specific purpose here just as we humans do. Neither humans nor animals are here by accident wandering aimlessly with no reason for being here. It is the dragonfly, I feel, who is gifted with moving between worlds. Dragonfly is the metaphor for our own transformations out of the depths of our emotional dramas into a place of freedom. A place we could equate to going when we depart this world. Thus, the red dragonfly may emerge around death with the soothing message that this transformation will carry us to freedom and eternal love.

In Japan the dragonfly is considered to be very sacred. Red dragonflies appear most often there at the end of summer with the message that autumn is coming. A beautiful Haiku poem reads,” That the autumn season has begun is decided by the appearance of the red dragonfly.” The Japanese embrace the dragonfly as a symbol of courage, strength and happiness while the Native Americans speak of the dragonfly as bringing a time of rejuvenation after a long period of trials and hardship. Both of these interpretations bring us hope after the death and loss of a loved one. Further, the Native Americans perceived dragonflies as the “souls of the dead” so a dragonfly visitation around a loved one’s death could well signify the loved one’s soul taking form in the spirit of dragonfly. It offers the assurance their soul is free.

When we consider the color red and its meaning, particularly in relation to it as the color of the Root chakra, we find the significance to be deeply linked to the Earth. The Root chakra is associated with our basic survival needs, resources, stability, security and all manner of grounding spirit energy into both the body and the Earth. The color red is affiliated with our passions and strong emotions around heat, fire, anger and love. Thus, the color red represents a strong connection to this material world and our emotional experiences along our life journey. When we depart this world, we let go of all our earthly and emotional attachments. To witness a red dragonfly around death is a comforting reminder that in our letting go of material and emotional trappings, we are being set free.

Life is not what it appears to be. Red dragonfly says we must see through the illusions in life for then we can make this great transformation while still in body and life, before death. As above, so below. If we can lighten our load and evolve into the vibration of light in the body, then we will find the ability to adapt, bend, flow, change, shapeshift, transform and fly now. The significance of red dragonfly reflects our need to work lovingly on this earthly plane, to ground the higher spiritual forces within us to the earth beneath our feet and to celebrate our capacity, like dragonfly, to move between worlds and bring a little bit of heaven to earth. We can find freedom here on this beautiful, blue star planet as we embody living the gift of this life. Death is but a mirror of a life well lived on iridescent wings."



Thursday, August 3, 2017

The Wrong Side of Mercy

 
sometimes
the only way i
can make 
peace
with something 
is to
run
from it

i find
the more 
i run from
things
the more they
chase
me

today finds me
on the wrong
side of
mercy

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Kindness Matters

she's 
done

be 
kind
whenever possible
it is
always
possible


Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Hello August........


hello august

still working on 
this

love
peace
&
chicken grease