Mercy

"a dark cloud is no sign that the sun

has lost its light

and dark black convictions are no

arguments that god has laid aside

his mercy"

i my darkest hours i find comfort 

in that mercy

The Wonky Donkey

i am a such a fan

of kid's books!

900,000

This..........

900,000

beyond my comprehension

Set Me Free......

when....

The Edge of Lost

there are days when i feel

i am just a number on the edge

of lost....

 

 

How You Learn To Live Alone

"First you fall

then you fly

believe you belong to the sky

 Flap your arms

as you run

every revolution closer to the sun

 Fall asleep in motion

uncharted hemispheres

wake with stars falling 'round your ears

 When they hit the ground 

they're nothing but stone

 That's how you learn to live alone
Release resistance

lean into the wind

til the roof crumbles

rain pouring in

 Sit in the rubble

til the rubble feels like home

That's how you learn to live alone..."

Faces Places

Awesomeness!!!

#netflix

Broken Dreams

"the thing about memories 

is they come back to you...

in the darkness

or in the daylight

they arrive like strangers at night

they appear out of the shadows

in the heat of the sun

or walk up to you...smiling

in the rain

no matter how you feel

you know the truth 

when you come face to face

with it

you know it by its eyes

... its voice

you know it so well that you

don't need to ask its name

and then

what do you do?

whatever is needed

to forget..."

Where Birds Never Sing

jonesing to play in my journals

no printer ink

no money

digital

Gobsmacked

gobsmacked

by the beauty

that surrounds 

me...

Parallel Universe

The Sight

being gifted with

the sight

doesn't always

feel like a

gift....

Earthbound

sometimes

a broken wing

keeps us

earthbound

been broken

for too long

mending....

Bravery

swallowing my fear and hurt

and stepping out into the world

once again....

Score

i managed to get a shop 

for my metal work

all i have to do is pay the power bill

score!!!

spent the last couple of days cleaning 

 getting it ready for my equipment

excited to take my art

 in this new direction

Excited

where to start.....

apologies for being such a crappy blogger

it's who i am

working on a new venture

excited!!!!

setting up

 

learning

 

metal sculpture

Truth #11

truth.....

Water

for the longest time i've felt the pull to relocate

 

this land has been in my family since the early 70's

  there is a connection here

but it's not home

  logistics of moving seem overwhelming

but the pull....

 awoke this morning to the whisper of water

all day..... water

felt drawn to read my coffee grounds...

 

do you see

 

fish... tail breaking the surface

the spray

can you smell the slick body

returning to the liquid womb

...water

Alpha

 

wow!!!

this will definitely be

my birthday treat!

My Friend Maia Revisited

i revisit here ever so often

soothing

inspiring

it gladdens my heart

The Patience of Guides

i don't understand my own

 just accept

bow my head

in gratitude

for patient

guides

 

 

 

It Feels Like A Sickness

still....

Demons Don't Like Fresh Air

one of the views from

today's hike

red tail hawk

egrets

wild duck

soul soothing

picked this up on my hike

won't take much carving

to reveal it's face 

Born To Howl

yesterday

full moon

i'm always affected by the full moon

because i'm bipolar

maybe

i was born under a full moon

born to howl

want to see if you were born under a full moon?

go here and change the 2018 in the top most search

line to the year of your birth.

Conversations

do you talk to the wind?

i do

and the sky...
and the birds...
and the trees...
and the rocks...
and...

 i hear their
answers
do you?
 

Too Funny Not To Share

OMG

cats are soooo funny.....

Baby Steps

well....

at least i got to carve

frustrating when i can't make

my hands use my mind's eye

if i'd practice every day

maybe

it's just not in me

to do that

this was a limb from a dead cherry tree

'bout two fingers wide

i'd rather be outside 

chainsaw carving

 

not in all this pollen

it'll have to wait

Jonesing For A Little Carving

the lengths i'll go to

to be able to carve

when i don't have a shop

and can't be out in the pollen

is it gonna make a mess in my studio

you betcha!

do i care

nope!

i can write myself notes in the

dust

Still.....

still......

Heaven Is A Traffic Jam On The 405

what an awesome artist

in spite of her life story

inspiring....

My Tree Spirit

she's up

if you listen closely to a piece of wood

it will tell you the wisdom and secrets

that wind and rain whispered to it over

its lifetime

wood

stone

prayers

blessed

Does The Soul Remember

this magazine....

i have been following them on instagram

magical

i am so drawn to the land of my roots
does the soul remember? 

  i've decided this needs to be

in my life

subscribed

waiting

Mosaic Tile House

WOW!

Back To Center

the beginnings of a tree spirit

for my sculpture garden

her head carved from a cedar stump

the body a limb that broke on my

pecan tree last year

i've had to work on her between rains

as i don't have anywhere to work

out of the weather

just cover her with the tarp 

to cut down on drying time

when wet 

it's been a cold...wet...winter here

i've been holed up inside

reading

studying

it gladdens my heart to be able

to work outdoors again

meditative

healing

working my way back

to  center

Who Does The Remembering?

 beautiful beautiful soul.....

Beneath the Mask

i arrange my face 

to give others the version of myself

least likely to unsettle them

experimenting today with joint 

compound on wood

No Truer Truth

no truer truth....

Burned Into Bone

a tree begins its life

 reaching for the light

and ends up

standing in the light

i find myself reaching less

"being" more

shrouded with memories

burned into bone

Messengers

the dead send messages

on the wings of birds

in the language of loss

 

i sit in silence

listening

 

wounds so heavy

only silence helps

carry them

Empty

is it longing that moves the sea?

 listening

the wind whispers your name

through the hole in my heart

 empty of even haunting 

 

Lightworkers 6 & 7

lightworker 6

lightworker 7

these complete my lightworker series

i chose to finish with the crone

she best represents where i am

on my path

i started this form of painting for therapy

to try and recenter myself

and used digital painting because i 

couldn't afford supplies

as a virgo

it has been a challenge for me 

to use this free flowing

intuitive type of painting

with its wonky lines

and misshapen bodies

but that's really what life

is all about...isn't it

none of us are perfect

but we have all been given

this gift of a body

for our soul to inhabit

Lightworker 5

she is our mother

giver of life

i thank her daily for the blessings

she gives me

 

i offer her kindness

healing energy

and do my best to 

leave only soft footprints

along my path

 

Lightworker 4

we are all one

we are all connected

earth 

air

fire

water

descending into

an ancient 

quiet

Lightworkers

lightworker

healer

soother

peace bringer

i am all these things

these are the beginning of my

lightworker series

we lightworkers have been given

 a gift

and are guided to share

"some days i speak in a thousand tongues

and never use words"

truth...

Still

still.........

:(: Insomnia :):

one of the harder things for me to deal with

as someone who is bipolar

is the sleep cycles

or i should say the non sleep cycles

after three or four days straight of

one to two hours of sleep a night

i start losing my motor control

my ears ring

my vision is impaired

and when the cycle passes

that first sleep is usually so deep

i awake in a fugue state

and have a day feeling like i'm

underwater

sleeping is a chore for me

and it makes me dread even

trying

if you could smell this picture

it would smell of

hopelessness

KO'D

ko'd

knocked out

more times than i can count

i hear the voices whispering

stay down fool

but i pull myself back up

for one more try

i'm just stupid that way

The Mercy of Angels

no matter how often i jump

i always receive the mercy of

angels

 i don't know if my guardian angel drinks or not
but i do feel sure it will before my story is finished
 

Postmortem

whatever asks

heart kneels

and offers to

bear

Say Something

anywhere

i would have followed

you

Trying To Hold It Together

 

i need a sign to let me know you're here

all of these lines are being crossed

 over the atmosphere

i need to know that things

 are gonna look up
'cause i feel us drowning

 in a sea spilled from a cup

when there is no place safe 

and no safe place to put my head

when you feel the world shake

 from the words that are said

i need a sign to let me know you're here
'cause my tv set just keeps it all from being clear

i want a reason for the way things have to be

i need a hand to help build up

 some kind of hope inside of me

and i'm calling all angels

 

i'm calling all you angels

Would I Lie To You

little white lies

the last person i can trust

or believe is

me