I Am Afraid

why are we so afraid to

step outside of our 

comfort zone?

i

am

afraid

i

am

afraid

i

am

afraid

What The Night Does To Me

"i fear mostly my inability to capture all the things that come

i fear their mysterious source...i fear their fate

i fear me

this is true

it's like finding a river of gold when you haven't even

got a cup to save a cup full

you've but a thimble

and that thimble is your pathetic brain

and labor

and humanness

i like too many things and get all confused

and hung up running from one falling star

to another 

till i drop

this is the night

what it does to me

i have nothing to offer anybody

except my own

confusion"

Written On the Heart

                                                              artwork by deborah sheedy

 

the shape that wears me

peering through the mirror

fears not dark

nor death

but the loneliness

written on it's heart

in a tongue

it cannot 

speak

Enough

fear

hope

no one

without the

other

fear:

 not enough
of the

 who

what

where

hope:

birthing fear

infinite

choosing

hopelessness

i

am

     enough...

* if the thinking of this seems dark...it's not meant to be 

only that i choose not hope and fear but to sit with the

present...embrace what is...

Shedding

i worked at a job for years

where i could show no FEAR

it became my persona

hardened

how i really felt....

weak

VULNERABLE

afraid

i CARRY that fear still

and a need to peel it

AWAY

shedding....