Bee Fever

i love this.....

Small Town Lonely

"ain't no hell on earth

like small town lonely

where every person

knows where you've been

and what's happened to you

and every one of them

made their decision

once or twice

about whether you was right

or wrong

in what's gone past

and everybody but you

knows how their mind's made up"

Merciful

i become

weak

discouraged

exhausted

angry

frustrated

unhappy

confused

but someone

within me

is resolute

and i try

again

within us lives a

merciful being who helps

us to our feet however many

times we fall

and for this

i bow my head

in gratitude

ROFLMAO

that first time your child comes to

you for parenting advice about their

teenager after vowing never to be

like you when they grow up....

Paulus Berensohn

do you journal

i am forever beginning them

but lack the "stick to it ness"

to journal daily

i would love to have taken

a class at penland with paulus

i am just in awe of this man

his outlook on life is something

i aspire to

i have the dvd of his life

"to spring from the hand"

one of my treasures

in it he is asked what will

be done with all his journals 

after his passing and he said he

wanted them to be hung up in a

tree and allowed to return to the earth

this past june he left this world

in my mind's eye i can see his

many journals decorating the

tree of honor

when paulus's health begin to decline

he chose to be interred in at carolina

memorial sanctuary...an eco friendly

natural burial cemetery

he preordered a cardboard coffin which

he and his friends painted and collaged

this is a photo of his interment

such a special man.....

Brief Lives

"goodbye...brief lives

ablaze with tenderness

today the glory of the leaves

is enough...for i am learning anew

to release all i cannot hold

these moments of luminous grace

saying here and here is beauty

here grief:

this is the way to come home"

A Thing Made of Holes

"there is a time in life when you expect the world to be

always full of new things. and then comes a day when 

you realize that is not how it will be at all. you see that

life will become a thing made of holes...absences...losses

things that were there and no longer. and you realize

too..that you have to grow around and between the gaps."

trying.....

Truth #9

my being whole is

questionable

 not so my

lack

of 

perfection

i can

live

with that

Express Gratitude

continuous practice

day after day

is the 

most

appropriate way of expressing

gratitude

this means that you

practice continuously

without wasting a single day

of your

life

without using it for your

own sake

why is it so

your life is a 

fortunate outcome

of the continuous practice of the

past

you should 

express

your gratitude

immediately