Infinite

in·fi·nite

ˈinfənət/

adjective

adjective: infinite

limitless or endless in space, extent, or size;

IMPOSSIBLE TO MEASURE or calculate.

                                              

                                                      

Done

done

this PEELING away

of my UNTRUTHS

here is a flip through

of my journal/journey:

Ashes

ashes

plural noun

the powdery residue left after the burning of a substance.

the REMAINS of something destroyed; RUINS

the remains of the human body after cremation or burning

Disappointments

still PEELING layers

 

this:

 

disappointments

 

RELEASING.....

 

Unhurt

it is NOT about

the MATERIAL things

it was

NEVER

about the

material 

things....

UNSEE

the ATROCITIES i've seen

one human inflicting upon

another

HUMANS.....

man

woman

child

i worked in this

TOO many years

now i want to

UNSEE 

Shedding

i worked at a job for years

where i could show no FEAR

it became my persona

hardened

how i really felt....

weak

VULNERABLE

afraid

i CARRY that fear still

and a need to peel it

AWAY

shedding....

Peeling

fears....

hurts......

disappointments.....

over the years the

PROTECTIVE layers have

built up

lead paint on a window seal...

chipped

multicolored

hard work 

this PEELING away

the not me

slow...

meditative...

peeling....

Unbecoming........

so....maybe you thought i was GONE

i thought that too

i've spent the last few months RAGING

against the ruins of this shell i call me

and unbecoming that ONE

peeling OFF layer

after layer

of my

UNTRUTH

journaling

releasing

UNBECOMING